~mian. hyungz bcos thank GOD!~

yesterday, hyung pen & I decided to go to cloud9 to fetch hyung ding

it was now programmed to go there in between 8-9 am

but suddenly, when i went back home (MZdN)

my mother just told me that i'm having a acute operation regarding to my taste buds

since i cant skipped my secured house, i havent informed my hyungs to cancel my flight

the following day, i have no courage to text my hyungs because of nervousness (?!)

i am now heading to the operation door and my heartbeat beat faster

in the room, the time i have saw everything is that when the head doctor pin something to me

and then im so sleepy afterwards.

i opened my eyes with all my innocent face when my tita forced me to eat fish (isda=yuck)

and after all of what happen there, i went to the small church attach to the hospital

and prayed saying 'THANK YOU LORD, for my operation was a success'

after a 10-minute sleep break, I then went home

and sleep again for an hour

my omma then realized that after the operation, i'm always sleeping w/o breathing

thats why she consult the doctor about it and the doctor just replied that

it was the side effect of my abnormalism (of WBC)

i have abnormality (WBC) since i was born here in our MOTHER EARTH

because my omma let me drink antibiotic drugs since i was 2 weeks old

and it affects my blood count esp. WBC

and now, i'm easy to get sick

so hospital is my third home

THANK GOD for being alive since then

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

~SonG hYun aE~

~saeng il chuka hamnida~

its been 3 months and 25 days since i love u

and this is your first birthday we celebrate together

and if fate gave us a chance to meet i would anticipate much

but since it was just a dream to me for us to become one

i just appreciate what i have today even if you're not here.

today is your 22rd celebration (international age)

and i hope you are happy with your co-member as happy as i am being with my hyungs

even if they are dwaejee, i still love them.

this poem is for you to be happy and remember me always.

___________________________________________________________________________

Each year your birthday reminds me

That I really want to sayI’m very glad I know you;

I think of you each day.

I hope you enjoy your birthday,

All the pleasures it has in store,

And because I appreciate you,

I hope you have many more!

Instead of counting candles,

Or tallying the years,

Contemplate your blessings,

As your birthday nears.

Consider special people

Who love you, and who care,

And others who’ve enriched your life

Just by being there.

Think about the memories

Passing years can never mar,

Experiences great and small

That have made you who you are.

Another year is a happy gift,

So cut your cake, and say

,"Instead of counting birthdays,

I count blessings every day!"

____________________________________________________________________

this is for you SIWON-oppa

and hope that you have time to read my appreciation for you

saranghaeyo yongweonhi

always here at your side to guide with candlelight,

in the life that sometimes in a dark.

♥♥♥

사랑해요 영원히 시원 오빠

♥♥♥

~SonG hYun aE~

.y i cnt tell?

why i cant tell him?
is it because our friendship will affect?
so why? why? why? love is formed?
can anyone tell me?..
my record is bad enough to be realized that i have been crushing him for 8 months
why is love like that? ignoring people
cant tell their feelings to the one they like
why it exist if someone in this whole world cant explain?
can anybody answer why?

i cant even tell my hyungs
i know from the start that my unni cant understand me
because we are so different and that difference cant affect our friendship
thats a true friend means
not like anybody there, out there, so materialistic

i'm happy that i found my inner strength and that is my hyungs
and special someone
and Siwon-sshi, SJ, SHINee, SNSD unni, TVXQ esp. xiah my dear junsu.

saranghaeyo yongwoenhi..
♥

~SonG hYun aE~

:O..passing grade aftr removal..

i am taking removal for i have a very disappointing grade which .70% below the passing grade

after 2 nyts of preparing and praying for the removal aiming for the 75 grade

GOD answered my prayers with a very fluent answer even though the grade is not that high

at least it is higher than before

my grade back then was 74.30

since i brought bermuda and was participating in giving test tubes

maam then again add 1.4 to my grade

because of my lucky hand i had now chose the easiest question among all

nervous and confused are the factors that affect my test and got 4 mistakes

but then again i passed the exam and got 80 for the final grade in Chemistry

for the computations

i have 74.5 grade + the 1.4 bermuda and test tube = 75.6 rounded off to 76

since maam's deal was '

if we have a passing grade but a line of seven, and pass the removal exam we got an 80 grade but if not passed the grade is "as is"

but if we have a failing grades, we are obliged to take test and aim for the 75 grade'.

*GOD thanx for the opportunity to have a passing grade and also to Maam Che*

~SonG hYun aE~

X(..cn i be a karate kid!?

after having some etiquette time in T.L.E

matthew and i decided to clean the CR since we are assigned to do so

Juan owe me something so i told him to go fetch

with us and do the chores with us.

he then called charles johnrey to be with him since johnrey is the only friend of him that was in the room

bcoz all the boys are outside

then time come. i am forward to do the cleaning in the CR

while juan and matthew were thinking something fishy

after i'm done doing such, i heard the door shut

i thought it was only me in the room

there is also johnrey scripted-trapped at our rome

and oh! the lock of the cage of my demons is suddenly open

and my demons are unleashed

i kicked the purple stone towards the door creating a big 'bang' sound

and after that they didnt opened it

so i punched the door with my very own strength and not noticing that my right fist

is wounded so i just keep the 'hapdos' within me

i cant let out my anger because of my wound

and since it is planned

"I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM UNLESS THEY'LL DO SOMETHING THAT I'VE BEEN DREAMING OF"

like a ticket to KOREA, or a gift from SANTA CLAUS

.with that punch, can i be accepted as 'the Karate Kid'

~SonG hYun aE~

생 일 축 함니다 규현 오ㅂ바 ♥♥♥

today is a very special day to us (CJ), ELF, and Super Junior

especially Kyuhyun oppa.

we CJ celebrated oppa's day

by singing birthday song (korean version)

since we have a heptic timetable

we have no extra time to buy

cake like of that Donghae oppa's birthday

at lunchtime.

we just bought canton for my hyungs and

curlt spaghetti for me

and singing

'saeng il chuk hamnida (2), saeng il chuk kyuhyun oppa, saeng il chuk hamnida'

in Korean time~ oppa is now 22 years of age

but*

in international time~ SJ magnae is 21 years young.

message to Kyuhyun oppa*

oppa, wish you more birthday to celebrate and long life to enjoy

hope that no more injure thing and hurts that will come in your life

be strong oppa because you have lots of lovers that is concerned

and i know your Super Junior hyung are happy now that you're in good position right now

i can say that you can be a righteous model for us (your magnae)

think positive always and hwaiting

Happy Birthday to you

love,

Maica [송 휸 애]

this is a sincere letter

hope Kyuhyun oppa will read it

~SonG hYun aE~

...

today

is just a regular day for everybody

nothing change except for

my new hair look.

happenings are just the same

as usual

i chatted with my hyungs

Macky was in a'kulit mode'

we took Journalism periodical exam

OMG, Charles Johnrey spoke to me

he just said "sori because i forced you to reply me!'

and we (CJ) together with Mark Lloyd an JV

happily went home

~SonG hYun aE~