bluh!!!

i really can't imagine
how i am so lonely right now
even though i think i had everything
it seems so empty inside

back then,
there's a girl who really push
herself to be in a civilized place
and now
that wish was granted
but the little girl was not satisfied
for what she had now.

she then wished again to be
in their old home
but unfortunately
her mother always reminds her
that the house that was built in the city
was for her.

the girl felt conscience in her,
in her everyday life
she just wandering around the city.

~SonG hYun aE~

go out w/ mah hyungs. . .

.something 'bout U my dear G.d. . .

seeing U at that time (before) felt like just nothing
after the moment that you revealed your feelings
i also thought that i kinda like you

i really don't have an idea if this is just an admiration or affection
but if i admired you, i really don't know what thing or part of yourself that made me stared
i just know that if you're around i want to see you
the closer the better

i really want you to make conversation with me
somehow i thought that it wasn't me who control you
so don't forget that i'm here staring at you

times that i got perfect in our class
the thought of celebrating with you, my hyungs, and their crushes
will suddenly pop up in my mind

i don't even know when is that time
but i really hope that it will happen

you, boy made my world go round
so i shall call you money (in my mind)

~SonG hYun aE~

♥its been like a decade. . .

my summer was like a ferris wheel that stop at the top
unfortunately, the top portion of it was a lonely one
i'm not a internet connected girl at that time

that girl (considered as me) was alone in a big and dark house
she was there all the time thinking about her friends.

she was not able also to attend their monthsary
there were no signal for mobile phone in her place
it was like an island with people with no technology knowledge

after that boring times until now
that girl is begging for mercy to live in a place where people
are computer-civil? enough to make her belong

today, in a happy school days
she even don't have any idea what people in the city talking about
(Celsius Junior)
so, she just smiled in front of them

sometimes, fate makes her think that each human
around her were giants and she measured her self as an ant
but before then she promised to her self that even if she don't know everything
she will cope up next month in her new shelter

she thought of that because the mother pledged to her
that for the next 30 days from 1 they will
transfer in the internet-connected place
and she was happy about it


~SonG hYun aE~

she's home. . .

at night, my grandma told us that my cousin (ate)

will be home tomorrow

at 12 noon, i just arrived from school

i saw my ate M-M eating something

i met everyone including my aunt Lysel, mommy Maria and daddy Lolo

because of my tummy, i joined her ate

we discuss things concerning her stay in Cebu>br/>

after those things, she then went to the computer room

and . . . . .

i published this for i am very happy that she arrived safe

~SonG hYun aE~